Thank you for sharing and being honest about the issues you are facing. Adultery can wreck a relationship.
I empathise with you and your children. It is emotionally ravaging to know that your wife is cheating but you still feel the need to stay for the sake of the children.
First, you must agree with me that what you have are suspicions that have not been fully confirmed and confronted.
From where I stand, I see a man who has information, albeit not exhaustive, but has not fully dealt with it; and a woman who knows that she is cheating and is unable to confess and break the habit. Or it could be that she is innocent, a victim of circumstances.
Cheating spouses are inconsistent and don't tell the whole truth. They often lead double lives. Most times, they cannot account for their time, the gifts they bring home, and at times their expenditure.
However, with time it is impossible to totally or fully cover their tracks.
Great relationships are made of people who care about the feelings and concerns of their partner. People who lie and cheat on their partners tend to focus on one thing - Self. They hide their movements for fear of being found out and are made to face the consequences of their actions.
Although they may be aware that their behaviour is inconsistent, they defend themselves to maintain control and enjoy both worlds. Look out for sudden changes in behaviour. Changes in behaviour patterns could involve claims of working late, use of the phone or a sudden change in work schedule, less interest in sex, and increased travel that makes it impossible or difficult to reach them.
Check the responses your wife gives you. When she fumbles, avoids, and gives excuses about her whereabouts and offers conflicting stories, be alarmed.
When she is afraid of being questioned on the issue and chooses to offer counter accusations, then it is most likely that she could be showing signs of guilt. Do remember that this process requires patience and love as you confront it. She must see that you mean well for her and the relationship. Second, for you to exhaust this issue fully, you will need to make some sacrifices. For a start, be sure of the evidence you have and the authenticity of the sources of such evidence. People have been known to be good at breaking marriages out of malice. That means you may need to evaluate what you have been told and how truthful it is.
In addition, you will need to consider your wife's actions and behaviour and pick out any inconsistencies. Sometimes the truth we are looking for is right before our eyes.
Finally, confronting adultery in a relationship will require evidence, firmness, and speaking the truth in love. It is amazing what love-driven disclosures can do for a relationship. You have evidence of suggestive texts she exchanged, if so, determine whether your desire to confront her is to finally win her back or to prove to her that she has been caught.
When you state that you would like a separation but you would like to stay with the children, does this mean that you are unwilling to reconcile? The path I have given above is great for establishing the truth and confronting it in a Godly way, however, if the desire is to let her go while you stay with the children, the courts have a process, though you may want to tread carefully before going down that path. I have seen children grow up and seek their mother or father even after many years of separation or divorce.
It may also be worth evaluating your attitude towards her and ask yourself whether it could be affecting her negatively.
